I lived my life feeling alone. That’s just the way of it. I always did. As soon as I was old enough to have a feeling about it, I felt like I was alone. No matter how much I loved my family — and I actually got along better with my family than I think most people do — but I just always felt separate from everybody, and was terribly lonely all the time. I wasn’t living a life that was particularly different from anybody else’s, a pariah — it wasn’t like I didn’t have friends, but I just… we all of us are alone in our own minds, and I was very much aware of that from the very beginning of my life.